Honored

As I'm filling out my dreaded, and time consuming amount of paper work for our adoption profile. I have a hard time not thinking about what has brought us here, and how it all happened last time. I have a hard time not feeling closer to my savior. I have oodles of gratitude and thanks towards him. I feel honored that the lord choose this burden for us to bear. There are lots of burdens out there and yes this particular burned of infertility was devastating at first. Now I feel so blessed. Blessed because I have an out look on life that not a lot of people get to have. I get to raise my children with a beautiful example of selflessness (their birthmothers). I get to feel the love of our savior when finally a baby is literally place in our arms by an angel. Also my Daegen is the cutest kid out there (I'm sure the rest will be also). I'm so grateful for my very blessed life I feel so fortunate to have the experiences that we (Brock and I) get to share. I'm so excited to have another baby in our home soon.

p.s. our profile probably wont be up till June or around that time. So don't get to excited the process takes along time.

minute to win it.

Derald , Brocks brother is going to be on minute to win it tonight. We are really excited to watch it, I think he taped it back in July its been a long wait. Also My Mother in law will be on there too. Good luck Derald.

feeling like a zoo keeper

Winston's mess

Daegens throne

All day long my life consists of pee and poop. Today I take the dog out to go number 1 and 2 I get excited I praise him give him a treat. Then I come inside and Daegen wants to go pee pee on the toilet. When were finished and life goes on I forget to take the dog back out and he pees in the house I have to clean it up!! I throw the dog out of the house, while I'm cleaning it Daegen than wants to try to go pee pee again so I take off his diaper take him to the bathroom he pees yeah!!! I hear the dog barking scratching at the window so I go clean the mess. As I'm cleaning up the dogs mess I here Daegen not in the bath room but in his closet peeing in the corner, clapping and congratulating himself for peeing !!!! So I rush him to the toilet and tell him we only pee in the toilet. Then I clean up his mess. So for the rest of the afternoon I'm thinking do I really want to start potty training Daegen???!!!??? I'm potty training the dog right now. I go back and forth with the idea. I guess the dog inspired him? who knows. It as funny today I asked Daegen if he needed to go potty before his nap and he said yes and ran and got his coat to go potty out side. Yeah I know!!! Funny, he must be confused I forgot to say on the toilet I guess. I'm still debating on starting but I don't want to miss my opportunity. I may go get him some cool underwear and see if that gets him excited. He does get attached to things that he likes, like his frog boots. He loves those things. So only if I could find underwear like that !!!! we shall see. wish me luck.

P.S.

look who finally got new sunglasses. I got 2 pairs for him just in case;) Thank you Children's Place for having sunglasses early in the season. My troll has tantrums in the car when the sun is out.

fist bumps and tooting

(This pic was taken when Brock went night Snowbording and it was just me and Daegen and I was done being mom so Daegen and I were just buddies that night and had fries and milk shakes for dinner.)

Daegen in the last 2 weeks has been soaking things up like a sponge. He has been learning new words and having conversations with me. I wouldn't say they were very intellectual conversations but still he was trying to communicate his feelings . They go a little something like this. Mama, hauka tauka papa gmama, meme , mott ,bucky ,dada pee pee poo poo bumm stinky. WOW I know, what are we teaching him? Well, we are potty training a dog, and Daegen is fairly aware of how to go pee in the toilet or on cue while I'm changing his diaper. Another thing in that department he thinks farting is soo funny. I was watching another little boy one morning and they were sitting at the table and the little boy tooted and Daegen started to laugh, then he started trying successfully to toot also. They are only 2 years old and that stuff is already funny to them.

Today we went to the libraries story time and he was giving everyone fist bumps. Also we went to the store and he was saying hi and good by to random people at the store. He is so funny and I love this stage. Yes, I am worn out at the end of the day, but its worth it. He has me going on bike rides , taking adventure walks, and playing out in the rain for hours at a time. We are each others buddies now and I love it.

You should here him pray, oh my gosh it is so sweet. He loves praying for members of his family. When we sit down to eat he has been know to be the one with his arms folded first.

Meeting Santa

We finally were able to take the boys to see Santa on the Tuesday before Christmas and the line wasn't that bad. The boys were so exited when we got to Santa's work shop.

There were lights and trees and presents. They loved it.

Here they are so excited. Loving every minute of the North Pole village.

Then it came our turn to see Santa...Um not so much. Beck was wondering what was wrong with Daegen. He is thinking dude this guy gives out free presents!!! quite your crying. Your going to ruin it for me.

After Beck and Daegen got there pic taken together.... Being the persistent Mother that I am I insisted he had to stay on Santa's lap so he can have a solo Pic.

Ok I'm done. doesn't any one here me!!!

still not liking Santa and is over this whole thing.

Then the Trains with PAPA made it better.

He was king of the trains

new puppy

Our new puppy was actually an early christmas present to me, but then Brock changed it to a family christmas present. But it was a surprise to me. Brock and Daegen went out Christmas shopping for me and came back with a puppy. I was so excited! Also it was the breed that I wanted, a Golden Doodle, (golden retriever and poodle mix). He doesn't shed and they're supposed to be really smart. We will see we're having a hard time with peeing in the house. It doesn't help that its been raining non-stop and he jets right back to the house when you take him outside. Like I have said before, every boy needs a dog, and the pics say it all. Daegen is in love with this puppy. Every morning he sits in his chair and pats his lap and says doggy. He loves holding him while watching his morning train show.

our christmas tree

This year our tree came from our front yard. A 10 foot cedar tree that was going to be cut down anyways, it was too close to our house. So this year it had the privilege to be our christmas tree .

Daegens 2nd birthday party

We celebrated Daegens 2nd birthday on his birthday the 2nd of Dec. Our theme was Mister Man Party. We had mustaches, ties, a pinata, and mexican food and all the foods men like. We had a blast with all our friends and their kids and my parents. Of course we had a Ping Pong tournament that all the dads participated in. Happy birthday Daegy buns we love you.

he got a 4 wheeler for his birthday and we gave it to him the morning of. He couldn't get enough of it.

he is 2

Also My dad turned 60 on the 4th of Dec. So we celebrated that on Sunday. I made him wear these glasses.

thanksgiving weekend

Thanksgiving weekend started on Monday. I headed to Idaho with my parents to see my grandma in her last days. We of course hit a snow storm on the way there. Daegen got to walk in his first snow. He did live in Utah for a year but never really remembered the snow and he didn't walk while we lived there. Thats so weird to think about.

Then Thanksgiving morning Brock came to my Grandmas house to pick me up. He drove all though the night to get to spend thanksgiving with his family. He was such a trooper. The whole thanksgiving day I was on the verge of tears. Just saying good bye to my grandma for the last time was harder than I thought. But It was good to be back in Utah and see family.

Daegen Had a blast playing with cousins and the animals, but the best of all was grandpa's train set. He loved it. He would come grab your hand and pull you to the train set. The girls got to see the nut cracker. The funniest thing was my cute niece Noel told her mom that she could see the Snow kings bum, and then Rebecca asked her what her favorite part of the show was she said " the snow king" it was too funny, it made my weekend.

Of course in true Miller Miller style we left for Portland during a huge snow storm. The freeway was closed down and Brock thought that he would out smart the storm. So using the trusted GPS we took a highway that looked like it was going to hook us back on I 84 after the closure. It would have...but it was closed after about 25 miles heading into the middle of nowhere. Brock decided to try and go around the closure barricades, but after 3 miles, we were totally white washed we couldn't see if we were coming or going. Luckily there was a really humble motel close by and we got the last room. I was scared to go in the room because the motel looked scary. It was scary inside and cold. There was no heat just a little 1950's space heater. I have pics to show, but the people were very nice and invited us for dinner. They were a newly wed couple that were in there 70's. They were so nice and had humble means, but were so willing to give. What a great way to start off the holiday season.

Here are pics below.......

did not like the snow!!!

get me out of here!!!

We were right in front my grandparents neighborhood and we got stuck in a snow drift. As you can tell I could not even open the door.

it was really windy!!

Daegen checking things out with grandma.

Daegen and aunties at costco getting the thanksgiving feast.

Daegen and cousin emmett. With the train set.

with the animals down at the barn.

feeding the cow

in the barn, hanging with grandpa.

getting his toes tickled by grandpa.

playing cars with grandma.

D with grandpa and his train set.

the motel we had to wait out the storm in.

The TV that had mexican stations on. We couldn't change them because it was controlled by our neighbors.

see the little space heater. thats what kept us not frozen.

"new" drapes

some food that was left in the hotel. In case we were hungry.